Bipolar


"Bipolar"

The clinical definition of bipolar 1 disorder is as follows:

"Bipolar disorder is a fairly common affliction that is also known as bipolar affective disorder, manic depressive disorder and manic depression.
It is a mood disorder often characterized by excessive elecation (mania or hypomania) followed y deep depressive episodes.
Usually these episodes are separated by "normal" periods, although some individuals suffer from rapid cycling where the shipt from mania to depression occurs continuously."*


I have lived with bipolar since I was at least 15. I remember the symptoms from then. I didn't know what was going on but looking back after my diagnosis I realized that is what is was. I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 when I was 30 years old.
I had been depressed, then excited, spending 20k in one year on absolutely nothing and every once in awhile, the thought of suicide ran through my head. But thank God He made sure that I was smart enough to think of my family and my children. And the stupidity of leaving everyone behind.


Once I had my diagnosis I felt so relieved. I wasn't crazy! lol
Then I had to go through the battle of finding the right psychiatrist and the right combination of medications.
That was hell.


The first dr. and medications were the worst. She had me so overdosed on the worst medication! I would fall asleep for 3-4 hours in the afternoon. I couldn't help it. My body just shut down. I started to fall asleep when I was driving and I would have my kids in the car! I also gained over 70lbs in the first month! So not cool!


Eights years and 165 lbs later I finally found the right psychiatrist who prescribed the perfect combination of medications.
My moods were finally and completely stabilized, I wasn't tired, and I lost 150 lbs!
What a hallelujah moment!

I know that eventually my meds will probably have to be changed. But I am hoping that it won't be a huge change and that it will be another great combination.

For now, my moods are stable, I am not 300 lbs anymore and life is going good.
What more can a person ask for?